Bye Bye 2013....

few days left to 2014...
okay, i think since i got into highschool, i can see the differences not from me, but the surrounding and also my old friends.
2012, I was 13 and I went to STIAS, that school was brilliant! very tight schedule, but only the strong-hearted people could stay at that school, wanna know why?
1= that school doesn't has staff or janitor, only canteen crew, so students will clean the class, the school hall, the toilets and teacher's toilet too.
2= we only have 4 dormitary and two wardens, both of them are fierce as tiger (if we ever get punished, it's never a simple punishment) like read Suroh Yaasin at the graveyard around 1.00 am
3= most of the seniors care about hygiene, to bring big name on our school, and good grades, probably?
4= it's a tahfiz school so, each day 1 page of qur'an or more (if you can't make it, you gotta stand in the sun till you get it, the boys can see you!)

That school will turn you into the perfect muslimah if you keep an open-hearted because they will push you to this and that, but don't ever complain.
I know that school is full of Allah's blessing, because everytime our Walid had an event, it always rain.... Rain is blessing that shows Allah's saw you hardwork to gain something!
But I moved is not because I can't stand, only rich kids can afford, RM600  a month, baby...
And, at that time, my parents having a dilema. but I wish I didn't moved out, I always wanted to stay and feel closer to Allah

2013, I moved to SMAI and I'm 14....
way too different from STIAS

I always think by myself, this school sucks but the outside me lies, I keep smiling and laughed at their no-funny-at-all jokes because I don't want to hurt their feelings. The differences was,
it's not a school bunch of smartypants, it's like a school where adults dumped their unuseful kids...

So, I'M ATOTAL GEEK in the early years, because they all like to do bad/naughty things but I just sit there and watch until one time I tried to be like them, and it was fun

 

Okay, okay... I was wild! with them, until one day, I went back home and saw my friends from STIAS post all fun time they had, and they all look so sincere and good... I was so damn JEALOUS!

 



 

I realized I changed... the way I speak, the way I dress, the way I do, it was so rough and sounded like I'm a gangster... But it wasn't too late to change, so I decided to be a straight-to-point person. Whenever I see my friends wearing or doing bad things I just spill it out to them, and finally a little by little of them changed...

I'm glad, and there is a movie I saw, it says "I don't think you should follow whatever your friend said, maybe it's your time to told 'em the right thing"

 

 

But, friendship is always important, that's why they say, friends with the good one, but if you don't find them maybe it's time for you to change them! So that's all from me!

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakaatu

 

 this sounded so cheesy~

Rasulullah itu skema kah?

soalan diatas... agak-agak ape yang korang akan jawab, ya taupun tidak?
nak jawab ya macam perli pulak nak jawab tidak tapi...
*ehem, ehem*
ni berlaku waktu , ana tengah bad mood sangat sebab (errrk, tak ingatlah pulak) tapi yang pasti waktu tu malam lah.
So, ana lari pada kakak ketua asrama, Kak Zee, untuk meluahkan perasaan tapi entah macam mana waktu tu macam kene rasuk je sampaikan apa yang da cakap rasa macam dah banyak kali dia ulang. \
Ana terus memaling ke arah lain lepas tu dia pun cakap "Ehhh, kau jeling dari aku?"
Bukan nak kati tak hormat, tapi Kak Zee ni lah yang ana rasa satu-satunya kakak senior yang tak spoilt kat asrama, jaga pemakaian, jaga pandangan, jaga bahasa termasuk adab.
Cuma, waktu tu maklumlah bendera jepun tengah berkibar so memang marah tahap maksimum, ana pon lari daripada sekelompok banat pergi ke tandas untuk ambil air wudhu'.
Lepas tu, suba nak tidur tapi tak boleh juga, jadi ana pergi dekat Kak Zee tu balik, tapi kali ni tak minta Kak Zee yang bercerita, ana yang luahkan perasaan:-
Akak, ana dah tak tahanlah! Rasa macam jadi lebih teruk berbanding dulu sejak masuk sekolah ni, tapi akak tau. dalam banyak-banyak ceramah yang ana pernah dengar, satu je yang ana pernah menangis, (ceramah daripada seorang kakak senior yang tua setahun je daripada ana) Kak Tohrah, (nama dia Tahirah tapi saje panggil 'Tohrah'):-

Waktu ni pula, ana datang pada Kak Tohrah dan ceritakan masalah ana:
Waktu awal tahun ana masuk, orang kata ana 'SKEMA' sangat, bila ana dah berubah orang kata ana 'JAHAT' sangat.

Kak Tohrah balas:
Enti kene  belajar terima kutukan tu sebagai penguat semangat untuk jadi orang yang lebih baik. orang yang panggil enti skema ni sebenarnya nak puji enti tapi dia jealous.
"Jadilah Skema macam Rasulullah" ana ambik Rasulullah s.a.w sebagai rujukan, supaya lebih senang enti faham, apa yang enti nampak pada rasulullah?
*Baginda amanah, tepati masa, tak membazir masa, uruskan kerja secepat mungkin, tak menangguh, bangun awal untuk Qiyam, seorang pembersih.
Bukankah tu semua sikap seorang skema? patutnya kita bangga jadi macam tu, bukankah orang macam tu lebih disayangi Allah? Lebih dijamin syurga?


*Sebenarnya hujah Kak Tohrah lebih panjang tapi inilah isi pentingnya, mungkin zaman sekarang majoriti rasa siapa yang bahasa dia suka cakap [F***, M***** and so much more] tu macam cool~ sangat but pleaselah, no!
Dengan mencarut-karut tu, nampak sangat akal korang pendek, tak mampu nak fikir jalan penyelesaian atau tak mampu nak sabar keluarkanlah 'bahasa pemuas hati' tu konon.
So, Back to main subject: Rasulullah tu skema ke?
Rasanya korang boleh jawab sendiri kan?