Bye Bye 2013....

few days left to 2014...
okay, i think since i got into highschool, i can see the differences not from me, but the surrounding and also my old friends.
2012, I was 13 and I went to STIAS, that school was brilliant! very tight schedule, but only the strong-hearted people could stay at that school, wanna know why?
1= that school doesn't has staff or janitor, only canteen crew, so students will clean the class, the school hall, the toilets and teacher's toilet too.
2= we only have 4 dormitary and two wardens, both of them are fierce as tiger (if we ever get punished, it's never a simple punishment) like read Suroh Yaasin at the graveyard around 1.00 am
3= most of the seniors care about hygiene, to bring big name on our school, and good grades, probably?
4= it's a tahfiz school so, each day 1 page of qur'an or more (if you can't make it, you gotta stand in the sun till you get it, the boys can see you!)

That school will turn you into the perfect muslimah if you keep an open-hearted because they will push you to this and that, but don't ever complain.
I know that school is full of Allah's blessing, because everytime our Walid had an event, it always rain.... Rain is blessing that shows Allah's saw you hardwork to gain something!
But I moved is not because I can't stand, only rich kids can afford, RM600  a month, baby...
And, at that time, my parents having a dilema. but I wish I didn't moved out, I always wanted to stay and feel closer to Allah

2013, I moved to SMAI and I'm 14....
way too different from STIAS

I always think by myself, this school sucks but the outside me lies, I keep smiling and laughed at their no-funny-at-all jokes because I don't want to hurt their feelings. The differences was,
it's not a school bunch of smartypants, it's like a school where adults dumped their unuseful kids...

So, I'M ATOTAL GEEK in the early years, because they all like to do bad/naughty things but I just sit there and watch until one time I tried to be like them, and it was fun

 

Okay, okay... I was wild! with them, until one day, I went back home and saw my friends from STIAS post all fun time they had, and they all look so sincere and good... I was so damn JEALOUS!

 



 

I realized I changed... the way I speak, the way I dress, the way I do, it was so rough and sounded like I'm a gangster... But it wasn't too late to change, so I decided to be a straight-to-point person. Whenever I see my friends wearing or doing bad things I just spill it out to them, and finally a little by little of them changed...

I'm glad, and there is a movie I saw, it says "I don't think you should follow whatever your friend said, maybe it's your time to told 'em the right thing"

 

 

But, friendship is always important, that's why they say, friends with the good one, but if you don't find them maybe it's time for you to change them! So that's all from me!

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakaatu

 

 this sounded so cheesy~

Step By Step, Day by Day

All, school of Malaysia holiday at Monday this week, but my school at Pahang...
Added a day!!!
5 days holiday at home... didn't go anywhere fancy or travel too far.
Just a relaxing week at home, yet in HOT situation...
I'v finished watching Ao no Exorcist ad still blur about the ending, my head is still full of question like: Who Mephisto gamble with in the first place? and who is the dead spiritual old man?
My sister just love the adv on the video: Mameshiba : I agree it is very kawaii~
I also tried to add skills and more detail on my drawing.
I did try to draw a boy, wrinkled shirts, flated skirts and pair of eyes in different positions. These all are my weakness in drawing...
one night I was so bored to death so I drawed this junkie:

I just got this silly idea as I remembered the days at boarding school... I'm telling ya, boarding's totally fun!!!

But, I'm still VERY VERY weak on using digital media as art, on the shocking news is, how can I won second place in a contest making digital poster?

Hmmm, whatever... I've tried and probably Allah trying to show what our talents are used for.

And that is me, with my friend... at our school hall (actully, the school surau) I'm wearing usual school uniform and she's wearing purple colored hijabi and a black jubah. She's wearing different because she was in a group of performing kalam jama'ie (sort of coral speaking but in arab)

Art is importing and it does in everything!

Talking bout arts...I still need to sharp my drawing skill whenever I had a chance to go back home!

Like this image of Sasuke petting a lion, I need to learn more details on drawing men and a real-looking alive creatures. It is hard to draw without base sketch... Practice make perfect!

And this image... Skill on digitalism <--  I just creat that word. Oh, I just can't believe my eyes if I can really draw like that before I turn 16! Time's ticking, don't waste time and always learn new things.

Digital and doesn't mean always in anime, art is everywhere. like this one, it is not anime, nor reality image, but creativity! Need to train my brain to think outta the box.

My neck is almost freeze because of staring at this laptop.. it's 12:15 p.m at my place. Im tired and it is time to hibernate/sleep
Assalamualaikum, to fellow readers.

Everything Happen has it Own Lesson

ana memang suka letak title bahasa inggeris tapi isinya bahasa melayu.... hahaha...
 semalam ana balik bermalam, so sekarang ni kat rumahlah.
awal-awal lagi ana dah sedih sebab ana sebenarnya masuk satu pertandingan melukis guna photoshop, tapi ana dah tanya kawan-kawan (girls & boys) takde pulak yang ada photoshop.
balik rumah pon laptop ana size mini ni mana muat nak simpan app macam tu. ana rasa ana terlampau mengharap so Allah pon bagi dugaan cenonet macamni kat ana... dugaan: kes takde photoshop tak boleh masuk pertandingan :(
Tetapi, adik ana yang ailurophilia (animal-lover) nampak anak kucing kat kantin sekolah ana bawa pulang anak kucing tu untuk dirawat.
Kitorang pon bawaklah jumpa vet, doctor tu kata "it's still a kitten, so we can't give any kind of medicine because of its weak antibody"
Doktor tu pon ada kasi petua : minum susu cereal (bukan yang serbuk) @ minum air garam (jangan masin sangat)

Bila balik rumah, banyak benda ana tak puas hati, so...
biasalah perempuan, buat emo gitu~ terpaksalah ibu melayan perangai setan ana ni, lama lah jugak ana merajuk tapi mak ana layan baik je. Kadang-kadang tu ibu ada cakap "hei, nak ibu lempang ke?" tapi nampak sangat dari riak muka ibu tu... ibu cakap tak berniat pon. Kalau mak korang ada cakap kasar macam ni, korang kene faham yang dia nak takutkan kita supaya kita tak terbuat apa-apa, tak nak tambah dosa lagi.

Hesh, kalau ayah ana ada takde lah berani sangat ana nak buat perangai, rindu juga kat ayah yang asyik kena merantau benua je. Ana pon boleh perasanlah yang ayah rindu kat ibu,  kalau telefon lama betul tak takut ke makan bil banyak padahal nak tanya khabar je. Haaa, macam tu lah bila rindu sanggup buat apa je.

Malam tu, kitorang feed kitten tu, kitten tu kasi lah jugak respon, mewing, mata pun terbuka, boleh berjalan tapi macam orang mabuk sebab lemah sangat. Dalam 5-6 langkah terus jatuh. Lawak tapi kasihan juga.

Pagi tadi pula, bangun-bangun je ibu cakap "mommy got a bad news" dengan muka toyeee ana pon jawab "what??? the kitten's dead" ibu pon angguk,  adik pula terus bangun menegak ikut ibu nak kuburkan dia. ana yang takde feeling sangat ni datang lambaat sikit. nak cergaskan diri dalam tandas dulu >.> kehkehkeh.

Ibu nak tanam Cloudy (nama kitten tu) kat belakang rumah, ana pon tolong korek lubang. adik pula cuma merenung tak terkata. waktu nak balut Cloudy tapi badan dia dah keras. Selepas uruskan jenazah Cloudy, adik pula yang moody. ana faham perasaan dia yang terlampau sayangkan haiwan tapi ibu dah pesan awal "fitrah haiwan, makan, minum, breeding, mati" adik ana memang senyap sangat bila bercakap pun seakana berbisik. "Cloudy tahu adik sayangkan dia, tapi nak buat macamana, Allah lebih sayangkan dia" lagi pun adik tu masih ada two turtles yang sangat active. Setiap perbuatan kita yang baik pasti dibalas baik... Al-Fatihah untuk Cloudy.

Lepas Isya' ayah call, he spoke to mommy and mommy pass it to adik, adik said that "Losing the cat same as losing mommy and daddy" okay, that sounds very deep... tak sangka adik akan keluar ayat macam tu. Ana tak tahu lah pula apa yang ayah jawab tapi rasanya ayah kasi nasihat yg POWER. Biasalah tu, perkataan yang keluar daripada mulut bapa kat perkataan berhikmah.
Hari ni dengan semalam, agak down tapi harap esok there will be sunlight <<.<< erk... mendelah ana merepek ni?

P/S: setiap yang berlaku perlu kita renungkan dah putarkan ke bahagian positif! Jadikan iktibar! sama macam cerita pen habis dakwat (ada dalam salah satu post ana)

Everybody's Mommy

We all used to hear "Mom knows best"
Well, most of us believe that we didn't learn from the words.
What I'm trying to say is, what's the point if we agreed what people were saying but we did not do what we just agreed.
Like a school want to have a big Teacher' s day event, everybody said "Yes1" but the pupils just so lazy to work on it...
In the end, the event wasn't look like a Teacher's day Event.

Today's topic: Our beloved Mom!
I actually don't really believe that  what Mom knows is the best.
Because everytime I follow's Mom instruction in doing that and this, and it end up to be a massive disaster!
Actually, it's not that horrible, just end up wrong.

a pic of my Mother and lil sis... 

This pic is ugly

My mom is a person that, let say quirky, yes she is quirky yet funny... sometimes clumsy.

And she sucks on singing... 

Eventhough she is a not a perfect woman but she is my mom. She may have the worst instinct in our family, because she is my mom.

And, you can't push Mommy's advice away.

I BELIEVE THAT PARENT'S WORDS ARE THE WORDS THAT CAN SAVE YOU FROM DROWNING IN THE CRUELTY WORLD.

Holiday come and go

Yippeeee!
guess where  my parents brought us on our school holidays?
to Cameron Highland, in Malaysia yer' folks!
Ahhhh... longtime we haven't went to CH.
First stop of course, the land where tea leafs were buried
The BOH Tea Plantation!

Look at the greeny sceneries, the cold, the aromatic herbal smell,the clouds and the meals!

At BOH Tea Plantation there is a port where you could have a breakfast with greeny sceneries around you (so I'm promoting you guys to o early in the morning!)

Me (brown top) and my sis (blue top) on our way to fill our tummies with morning meals!

Jealous much?

Next stop, pick yer- own strawberries! There is so much Strawberry Plantation, and I dunno which one should I pick! And I think the strawberries flavour just the same!

 This is  my lil' sis... we really don't look the same, got that.

"Mom, I wanna pick my own strawberries too!"

Yes, yes and yes! Cameron Highland is just the spot where to go to cool yourself because now the temperature is hot, while at CH, cool breeze flow through your ears.

Positif yang sentiasa tersembunyi

     Suatu hari, ana pergi berjumpa dengan ustazah ana, Ustzh. Ke, untuk mendapatkan tandatangannya untuk kertas kerja ana. Ustzh. Ke membelek kertas kerja ana dan mengambil pen birunya untuk menandatangani kertas kerja tersebut, dakwat daripada pen tersebut tidak keluar rupanya pen biru tersebut sudah kehabisan dakwat.
     Ustazah ana menyimpan pen biru itu sambil mengucap "Alhamdulillah" dan mengeluarkan pen biru jenama lain, Ustzh. Ke bertanya kepada ana "Kamu biasanya sedih atau gembira kalau pen sudah habis dakwatnya?" ana tunduk dan menjawab "selalunya sedih..."  Ustzh. Ke menjawab "Yang sepatutnya, kita gembira kerana pen ini telah berkhidmat dengan kita untuk menulis kalimah-kalimah, perkataan mahupun contengan sehingga habis dakwatnya," Ustzh. Ke tersenyum melihat ana ternganga dengan jawapan diberikan.
     Ana sedar yang positif sentiasa ada di sekeliling kita, hanya kita sebagai manusia sentiasa berfikir negatif.

Perempuan Zaman Sekarang

Mulai post yang terbaru ni Yana nak guna perbahasan "Ana-Antum"
Ana-Saya
Antum-Korang

Topik hari ni yang ana nak bincangkan ialah tentang perempuan, ana sendiri sebagai seorang pelajar yang duduk dekat asrama, dah biasa sanagt kene tegur ngn warden lelaki, kene kutuk dengan pelajar lelaki
nowadays, it's seems to be normal
Tapi, kalau zaman mak-nenek ana dulu, perempuan dah kene sound sikit pun dah blush muka ni! Kita sebagai pompuan kene ada rasa malu, tapi malu yang berpada-pada lah.

Ana mula sedar yang perempuan zaman sekarang dah macam rock kapak semasa tengah berborak ngan geng >.< heh! Time tu ana sedar, beberapa kawan ana duduk dengan cara yang pelik, tak sopan paling biasa diperkatakan TAK MACAM PEREMPUAN.
Bila sume pelajar kena berkumpul dalam madrasah, ana ter"intai" pelajar lelaki dan sedar, cara mereka duduk lebih sopan dari perempuan ! alahai~ malunya...

Alasan yang perempuan selalu kasi, "susah nak duduh sopan kalau pakai kain" macam tak logik je, sebab kain dah kasi 'RUANG BEBAS' dekat seluruh bahagian kaki, apa yang susah dan tak panas pon!
Ana tengok pelajar lelaki, mereka pon pakai kain pelekat, cara duduk:-  tegangkan kain pelekat, labuhkan lutut dahulu, duduk dengan tenang (dah macam bersimpuh pun ada)
Siapalah sangka lelaki pun tahu rasa malu duduh terkangkang dalam majlis ilmu.

Lagi satu masalahnya, satu kelompok perempuan tengah berjalan lepas tu, terasa diri ni macam ada orang duk usha, dah kembang dah punggung tu, siap jeling-jeling, control ayu!
Tak perlulah, sebab lelaki tu usha kita pun tak pasti tengok bahagian baik atau bahagian buruk diri kita.
Ana sarankan korang sentiasa berfikir 'vice versa'

kalau ana tengah kutuk lelaki ngan kawan-kawan ana, ana akan fikir vice versa "agak, pernah tak lelaki kutuk perempuan juga?" dengan cara ni kita akan ada rasa macam sendiri bersalah, sama dengan situasi antum nampak lelaki usha antum, dalam hati pun terdetik "eeeh~ lelaki tadi usha aku, eeeh~" fikir vice versa, bayangkan kita ialah lelaki itu "eee~ aku terpandang minah tu je, mesti dia ingat aku nak usha dia.... yik!"

Kesimpulannya, kita yang masih menuntut ilmu ni fokus pada masa depan sahaja, kalau hati terdetik rasa jealous sebab kawan-kawan semua dah berpunya, kita sahaja yang masih solo, berdoa sahaja supaya jodoh cepat diketemukan

Ikhlas dalam Memberi

Yana nak tanya, korang semua percaya tak yang kalau kita memberi kita akan mendapat dua kali ganda daripada apa yang kita beri?
Kalau korang percaya pernah terjadi pada korang? Ke korang yang tak sedar?
Ayah saya selalu sangat ingatkan saya mengenai perkara ni, sebab dulu saya dilabelkan sebagai 'kedekut'.
Yana pun sebenarnya tak suka gelaran itu, so saya tekad untuk berubah...
Tanamkan dalam diri "Tiada siapa akan ubahkan diri kita melainkan diri sendiri",
Sebenarnya perkara yang 'Orang yang memberi akan mendapat Ganjaran' tu betul, tetapi...
kalau dengar orang cakap begitu jangan lupa tambah '...ikhlas memberi'. Seriously, orang yang ikhlas memberi memang akan mendapat dua kali ganda ganjaran daripada Tuhan.
Antara niat-niat ikhlas memberi:-
* kerana mengharapkan ganjaran daripada Tuhan
* kerana takut akan Allah dan lakukan kebaikan untuk recover dosa-dosa sebelumnya
* kerana mahu membantu bagi orang yang memerlukan
* kerana ikhlas yang tulus

Yana waktu sekolah rendah dulu, keputusan UPSR ialah 5A. Pihak sekolah memberi murid-murid cemerlang UPSR sekeping duit RM50 seorang. Beberapa hari kemudian, Yana sekeluarga ada pergi makan tengahari di restoran yang dilupai namanya.
Selepas kitorang habis makan, kenyang perut. Ibu memanggil waiter untuk bayar harga kesemua makanan tadi. Bila ibu membuka handbagnya, dompet ibu tertinggal di dalam kereta dan dompet ayah pula di rumah, wang yang ada hanya wang RM50 yang sebenarnya duit UPSR.
Saya relakan hati dan gunakan wang tersebut untuk bayar makan, tak meminta balasan dari ibu untuk mengganti duit tersebut.
Seminggu kemudian, nenek datang untuk mengucapkan tahniah pada saya. Nenek memberi sedikit ang pao berharga RM70! gembiranya hati Yana!
Lagi satu kisah pula, Yana baru balik dari asrama, waktu di asrama saya berjimat cermat dan membawa pulang RM25. Malam keesokkannya saya cadang untuk belanja seluruh keluarga Tutti Frutti, semua ahli keluarga bersorak gembira. Sampai sahaja di kedai yogurt tersebut, kitorang buat Tutti Frutti sendiri dan bayar keseluruhannya RM19.
Bila saya pulang di rumah Wan di Inderapura, Kuantan. Wan memberi Yana RM20 sebagai belanja di asrama nanti. Gembira hati saya menerima duit tersebut dan tekad untuk mengamalkan niat ikhlas dalam memberi.

Yana harap korang pun berfikir begitu juga!
"Tiada guna kita belajar sesuatu ilmu tersebut jika tidak mengamalkannya"

Tikam Belakang Kawan

Sesiapa yang tak faham phrase 'Tikam Belakang Kawan' ni maksudnya, dia tak setia pada kawan dia tu, dari luar kawan macam biasa tetapi dia sempat lagi nak mengumpat belakang kawan dia tu.
Yana kan duduk dekat asrama, so dah biasa sangat lah dengan style TBK* ni.
Tetapi, kadang-kadang tu geng dorm Yana kumpul kat tengah-tengah dorm lepas itu, kita bincang pasal pelajar yang bermasalah, then discuss pasal dia ramai-ramai.
Cara yang ni adalah yang terbaik lah Yana dapat buat, sebab biasanya kalau kita bencikan seseorang itu sebab perangai dia yang tertentu, tak mungkinlah kita seorang je yang benci perangai dia, mesti orang lain sekali.
So, time tu kitorang bincang pasal sorang budak perempuan yang diberi nama 'En'. En ni masalah dia, mulut dia tu selalu cakap "Jelesnya, aku nak jadi macam dia, budak pandai, cantik...." tapi si En ni tak pernah ada usaha nak jadi macam apa yang dia cakap. Si En ni jugak mulut celopar, kalau dia kutuk orang...
"Ey, minah tu... belagak betul.. dahlah perasan lawa..."
Kawan-kawan korang mesti yang ada macam ni jugakkan?
Waktu bincang pasal En ramai-ramai, kawan Yana dipanggil Kei ni cakap "Kita dah masak dah dengan En tu, dia memang susah nak dengar nasihat... tapi tengok dia kutuk orang, apa yang dia kutuk tu semua datang dekat dia balik" bila Yana dengar dah macam petua ibu Yana "what comes around, goes around"
Bila Yana fikir sampai urat timbul kat dahi ni, baru Yana perasan yang nasihat tu memang betul dan kalau kita sentiasa ingat ayat tu memang tak berani nak mengutuk.
Sampai Yana jumpa hadith ni: sesiapa yang menghina seseorang kerana maksiat yang telah dilakukannya itu, si penghina tidak akan mati sehingga dia melakukan dosa tersebut.
Bila dengar hadith ni, ia dah jadi pedoman buat Yana untuk cuba menahan diri daripada membuka aib seseorang atau mengutuknya, korang pun boleh guna hadith ni untuk nasihat kawan korang kalau dia tengah berang dengan orang lain.